Sunday, January 15, 2012

My Skin

(Forewarning - poor grammar - stream of consciousness writing ahead...)

I've been thinking a lot lately about how I feel in my own skin.  So many women just don't feel comfortable in their own skin.  It's sad really.  I'm 29 and I'll be 30 in just over half a year and I'm finally starting to feel comfortable in my own skin - not everyday but most days.  There is something magical in my brain about turning 30; I am excited for it!  I feel like it will be a real turning point or, that I'll have some how official gotten over the hump that has been life for the past few years.

So why now?  I'm not sure exactly.  I mean, I've been through a lot of crap in the past 2 years that could make me feel horrible about myself but I think all that crap is what in a round about way makes me realize how strong I am, how "fearfully and wonderfully made" I am.  How I can face adversity and come out stronger on the other side.  How I can turn a negative in to a positive (or as positive as possible).  Going through crap has a way of making you look at things differently - in a more positive way, glass half full, don't sweat the small stuff....

In the past year I have become more away of the need to empower women or, at least more passionate about it.  I used to think I would only ever work with kids now, I'm not so sure.  (But with women usually come kiddos.)  Selling Thirty-One has made me feel more confident.  The company is about more than bags.  It's motto is to Celebrate, Encourage and Reward women and I have felt all three of those for myself since I started selling a little over a year ago.

I hit submit on my application to the occupation therapy doctoral program this week.  I might get in, I might not (it's uber competitive) but either way I'll still be me.  What I didn't say on my application is that I see OT as being a way to reach the least, last and lost just as Jesus did.  I could have flat out written that but I chose a more pc way to share my faith and how it influences my decisions and the populations I would like to work with.

There are pictures I like of myself now.   I never really used to like pictures of myself so, that's another indicator that I've changed a bit.

end of rambling...

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Merry Christmas

While I am still considering a return I'll take just a second to wish you all a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!  While life has changed much since my last blog post (nearly a year and a half ago) celebrating the birth of Jesus is a great reminder of the things that remain constant.  So, I'm looking forward to snuggling up with my little  (and still quirky) guys, listening to some holiday tunes and maybe just maybe starting up the good old blog again.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

A Return...

Life is by no means easy right now.  I'm going to make a (slow) return to blogging for the reasons I started blogging in the first place: to keep up with family and friends, record life adventures to someday share with my kids, and to be able to see the ways things grow, change, mold...

Here is something I have been reading and rereading, meditating on, thinking about, trying to live out... Maybe you will find encouragement (or, even a challenge) in it too.

O God, by whom the meek are guided in judgment, and light riseth up in darkness for the godly: Grant us, in all our doubts and uncertainties, the grace to ask what thou wouldest have us to do, that the Spirit of wisdom may save us from all false choices, and that in thy light we may see light, and in thy straight path may not stumble; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
(From the Book of Common Prayer)

Friday, July 16, 2010

The Balancing Act

Does anyone else feel like there life looks like this a lot of the time?

As I've been discussing my life with others (family, friends, counselor) the word "Balance" has become a go to word of sorts.  Trying to hold so many things in balance - following Jesus, marriage, taking care of kids, being a good friend, daughter, sister, aunt, cousin, etc., working, cleaning the house, exercising, sewing, reading, gardening, just being me, etc. etc. etc. - seems to be an impossible task.  A task that I am always trying to figure out how to do better. 

When it comes down to it I think we just need to stop sometimes and throw our books, cakes, fish on rakes, umbrellas and even our beloved red and white striped hats up in the air and allow for Jesus to take over and set priorities in line, show us which ones to hold so to speak. Yes, quite often easier said than done.  I'm trying to take time each day at the beginning of the day to ask God what things I should hold on to and which to let go.  Which to focus on and which to put on the back burner.  It doesn't always make it easier but it almost always gives me a launching point.

How do you find balance?

Monday, July 5, 2010

Holiday Weekend-ing

For as long as I can remember (and I think even before I was born) my Moms side of the family has gathered at my Aunt and Uncles house for the Fourth of July weekend.  Tents are pitched on their five acres, frogs are chased, rockets and fireworks launched, water balloons popped, games played, shoulders sunburned, baby birds observed, food enjoyed, bubbles blown

and, lawns mowed with an elephants help.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Guest Post

I have a guest post here.  Check it out!

Monday, June 28, 2010

The Giving Tree

 There are so many good things about this picture for me.  I think we found "The Giving Tree" tree!  We sat under this tree and had a picnic on Saturday.  We listened to "new world jazz fusion" music sung in Arabic.  We people watched (we were at Comfest for you locals).  We biked 7 miles to get there and parked our bikes in the free bike "valet" parking.  The stage was solar powered.  Ray had fun dancing around the tree and jumping off the roots.

If you haven't read it in a while you should go get "The Giving Tree" by Shel Silverstein from your local library.
The Giving Tree 40th Anniversary Edition Book with CD


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